I first met you back in the winter. You liked to laugh and I was more concentrated on my cold fingers and the hard blue plastic seats. Time ticks and life goes on, you busy with your life, and I with mine. Sheet music and cold choir rooms do not disturb you, sitting higher up on the three tears, me on the second to the bottem. Existing in the same world can seem as separate as existing in two different worlds. Not to deny the fact that I wish I had the courage to talk to you, because I didn't have the courage. It was nice, at the end of the spring, to get out of school, to smile and cut hair. They don't tell girls to be outgoing, well that's ok. I started to wonder if I would ever see you again, to hear that laugh of yours. Or to see you sing another song about an ice cube. I closed my eyes and woke up on a plane to Hawaii next to eighty year old lovers and windows full of sky blue. Its hard to recall faces you want to remember. I wonder if this happens to you too. Then we find ourselves at an art show, you've got ripped jeans and like to talk about Star Wars. Whenever I open my mouth to speak I feel silly and akward, like my mouth is too big for my words. Me with my hands tucked in my pockets and you with hand movements that gave you half the world. Girls that broke your heart and situations that made you give up faith in certain parts of your life. I wanted to change that, I didn't like the hurt in your voice. More talks on the phone and I don't know what to do, everything feels so natural. I want to say that L word but people say to me you are too young, driving down the interstate hair mussed up without days of sleep. I am old and mature, people need to stop telling me what to do and think. I wonder what you think. The newspaper doesn't say this, but, this is the summer of us.
School is good. I'm already busy. I'm sorry I havn't said anything or commented to you my dear friends, I really do care though & I read your entries.
Yesterday was absolutly wonderful. I met up with Temo and Greg at around 9:30am at the Santa Cruz Metro Station. It felt wonderful to be 'home'! Then we drove over to my bff's house to pick him up for breakfast. Unfortunatly, Daniel forgot deoderant so we had to spray him with my perfume. We ate at Café Brazil for breakfast! I had their lovley pancakes and their house chai, which is wonderful and spicey! During breakfast, Temo decided that we were going to rent a hot tub at a spa for the four of us. After running around SC High School (I would love to go there so I could be with my lovlies) we went to Well Within Spa. It was so lovley there, we got a hot tub for four, with an outside deck with complementary mint tea and herbal spa water! And warm towels! The atomosphere was so calm and relaxing, and for 10$ an hour per person it was deffinatly a treat. I don't think I've ever had a more relaxing day!
After our spa trip we went to the Capitola Mall to buy Pulp Fiction (Temo and Dan have never seen it) so Greg and I decided it was in their best intrests to watch it. After watching Pulp Fiction we went around to Ryan's house to watch some hardcore metal movies. Heheh, Ryan is wonderful, he reminds me of my ex-boyfriend Mike. Although, Ryan is move succsessful and has a band who I'm going to go see during September! Eeee, Ryan is my favorite metal-head. But, yes, at Ryan's house we made cookies and watched Rockstar while playing with his new puppy. Around nine-thirty (unfortunatly when Temo and I had to leave for home) Josley and the rest of the lovlies came over. I was so sad we couldn't stay! But it was a wonderful way to spend Monday, and the last week of summer. I took loads of photos and when they come back from the lab, I will post them. I hope you all are having good end-of-summers.
Here is the dress, I love it! but it definitely needs something! Feel free to give me advice and such, it would be greatly appreciated!
Oh summer fruit! The smells and colours always excite me. Oh, and so does August. Fall leafs and scarves for the chilly winds, in hues of pumpkins, deep reds, and ivory. I've always wanted to see fall on the East Coast! Maybe I will, I'm touring some colleges in the area. I've got this giddy school girl feeling about this year, not because it's my junior year, I just feel something wonderful is about to happen! What are your favorite things about the end of summer? I'd really love to hear about them.
School will start promptly on the fifteenth for me. Back to uniforms and large cups of chai in the early morning. I'm exited to see all my friends, although I feel a bit guilty for not seeing them over the summer. Its a tad hard going to an all girls school, during the summer you just want to be with your male friends and away from the frenzy.My cousin will also be getting married to his fiance in September, I'm thrilled. She's wonderful for him, and much alike to me. The wedding will be on the beach, small and simple. Isn't that rather charming and adorable? I'm making my dress for the wedding from one of my mothers old frocks. Its looking more like a modern tea dress now, and I love the teal colour. I'll post pictures soon when its done!
on the frock